I launched my photography business in December 2016. It took me about 6 months to actually say the words "i'm a photographer" to someone who asked me "what do you do?". Up until then, I pretty much just hid behind the line that I'm on maternity leave and "do a bit of photography on the side". Every time I received a booking or enquiry, I would honestly just look at my husband with amazement and say "why on earth would they want to book ME!?". Then people started saying really lovely things about my work - referring to it as "art" and calling me "creative" and honestly, I felt like the biggest impostor on the planet !! The thing is, I've never in my life considered myself to be creative. I'm hilariously bad and impatient at anything that involves art or craft, i've never been all that good with words (almost all of my friends would vouch for that) and I always just assumed those were the types of things that were the criteria for someone being creative .
Enter Amy, of Amy Rushbrook Photography . Amy has built her business and her brand on being completely outside the box when it comes to family photography. Her creative expression and ability to capture the most meaningful, soulful images from seemingly simple moments, is nothing short of breathtaking. Her work is instantly recognisable, not by how it looks, but by how it makes you FEEL. I knew that doing a mentor day with her was an opportunity far to good and far too valuable to pass up.
When I reflect back on my day with Amy, we talked about soooo much, she was so incredibly generous with her knowledge. From the technical camera stuff and the business side of things like marketing and branding, to embracing and capturing the real, messy and authentic moments over the "picture perfect". But, what was the most valuable to me, was the mindset that I left in. I feel like this day, was a complete turning point for me and was the day I started to OWN the labels that I had previously been shying away from even acknowledging.
Annnnnnd, know what world!?
Yes, I am creative
I look at spaces, light, people and interactions in a different way since finding my passion for photography. I notice tiny details that others may miss and see beauty in almost every place and I have done for years, much to the amusement of others (the amount of times I have heard my husband say "what the hell are you even taking a photo of!?" As I compose an image of a seemingly dilapidated brick wall with a flicker of light dancing across it....clearly my mind works slightly differently!).
Yes, I am a photographer
Am I at the same level as the photographers I look up to and who have been doing this for many years? Well, no, of course not ! But we all start somewhere and I am super proud of the images I am providing to my clients and I am committed to continually growing and learning and improving. I still get excited every.single.time I get a booking, but there is less of the "why me!?" reaction and more of the "I'm so happy they have picked me!" reaction - and actually, that's kind of something I hope never goes away!!
So anyway, there's a little insight into the mind of ( I can hear my husband chiming in here with "a raving lunatic") a new business owner who often feels completely out of her depth, but is learning to embrace the unknown and the fear of "what if I fail?" and revel in the excitement of it all. The excitement of turning my lifelong dream into an actual reality!
Oh, and the cherry on top of my mentor day with Amy?! Doing our shoot together with the absolutely ADORABLE Poppy and her beautiful mumma (and baby bump), Kate. When their pup, Banjo, got involved and it was like a cherry and sprinkles and chocolate fudge on top type of day ! Whoever came up with the saying "never work with animals or children" had obviously never been in this house ! Cuteness. Overload.